a long long time ago,i remember,

when i walked through those golden gates,

into heaven i called home,

for the next five years

 

i walked in, a timid boy;

and out came, the confident boy

and through years of college,

i laughed when others cried

 

life was a joy ride, it still is

but sometimes i remember,

wonder and ponder

where did it all fly

 

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this cant be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now hes gone

No one but me can save myself, but its too late
Now I cant think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye 

i drew this yesterday, ...although i knew exactly wat i had in mind(obviously), my friend's interpretation was entirely different, lets see wat u have to say.........

there's a man lives in london town,

makes movies,he's world reknowned,

yes, he's really got the fame,

STANLEY KUBRICK is his name,

he does it all, he does it all,

Stanley does it all....

He's a man who looks ahead

To make you think he raised the dead

And he cuts all his flicks.

He's a genius with his tricks

He does it all, He does it all,

I'm telling y'all , Stanley does it all.

 

(Song written during the making of THE SHINING by Scatman Cothers)

 

 

what do they know,

those who aren't in my shoes,

what do they know,

those who dont have the blues

 

waking up, every morning,

with hope, crushed in a moment,

breathing on, not really living,

fear, dominating every moment

 

a word for those who judge,

and question my actions,

have you you been in my situation,

and understood my reactions

 

just because im silent,

looking calm and havent lost my head,

does not mean that you are right ,

even though i struggle to earn my butter and bread

 

you dont know how it feels,

to see yourself bleed,

to stand and see your dreams shattered,

sand castles broken and soul battered

 

p.s. this is by no means an attempt to gain sympathy, a shoudler or anything else ....so please leave no comments stating the same, and i know the snippet is shit ....so dont bother on that front too

 

PEOPLE WONDER WHY THE CALL CENTRE GUYS R PAID SO MUCH......FOR JUST BEING ON THE PHONE.
TAKE A LOOK:
1 ) Tech Support : "I need you to right-click on the Open Desktop."
Customer : "Ok."
Tech Support : "Did you get a pop-up menu?"
Customer : "No."
Tech Support : "Ok. Right click again. Do you see a pop-up menu?"
Customer : "No."
Tech Support : "Ok, sir. Can you tell me what you have done up until this point?"
Customer : "Sure, you told me to write 'click' and I wrote 'click'."
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2) Customer : "I received the software update you sent, but I am still getting the same error message."
Tech Support : "Did you install the update?"
Customer: "No. Oh, am I supposed to install it to get it to work?"
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3)Customer : "I'm having trouble installing Microsoft Word."
Tech Support : "Tell me what you've done."
Customer : "I typed 'A: SETUP'."
Tech Support : "Ma'am, remove the disk and tell me what it says."
Customer : "It says '[PC manufacturer] Restore and Recovery disk'."
Tech Support : "Insert the MS Word setup disk."
Customer : "What?"
Tech Support: "Did you buy MS word?"
Customer: "No..."
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4). Customer : "Do I need a computer to use your software?"
Tech Support : ?!%#$ (welll pretend to smile)
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5). Tech Support : "Ok, in the bottom left hand side of the screen, can you see the 'OK' button displayed?"
Customer : "Wow. How can you see my screen from there?"
Tech support : ##### ***
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6) Tech Support : "What type of computer do you have?"
Customer : "A white one."
Tech support : ******_____####
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7) Tech Support : "What operating system are you running?"
Customer : "Pentium."
Tech support : ////-----+++
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8). Customer : "My computer's telling me I performed an illegal abortion."
Tech support : ??????
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9).Cus tomer : "I have Microsoft Exploder."
Tech Support : ?!%#$
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10). Customer : "How do I print my voicemail?"
Tech support : ??????
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11). Customer : "You've got to fix my computer. I urgently need to print document, but the computer won't boot properly."
Tech Support : "What does it say?"
Customer : "Something about an error and non-system disk."
Tech Support : "Look at your machine. Is there a floppy inside?"
Customer : "No, but there's a sticker saying there's an Intel inside."
Tech support : @@@@@
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12). Tech Support: "Just call us back if there's a problem. We're open
24 hours."
Customer: "Is that Eastern time?"
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13). Tech Support : "What does the screen say now?"
Customer : "It says, 'Hit ENTER when ready'."
Tech Support : "Well?"
Customer : "How do I know when it's ready?"
Tech support : *** ---- ++++
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The best of the lot
14). A plain computer illiterate guy rings tech support to report that his computer is faulty.
Tech: What's the problem?
User: There is smoke coming out of the power supply.
Tech: (keep quite)
Tech: You'll need a new power supply.
User: No, I don't! I just need to change the startup files.
Tech: Sir, the power supply is faulty. You'll need to replace it.
User: No way! Someone told me that I just needed to change the startup and it will fix the problem! All I need is for you to tell me the command.
Tech support::
10 minutes later, the User is still adamant that he is right. The tech is frustrated and fed up.
Tech support::(hush hush)
Tech: Sorry, Sir. We don't normally tell our customers this, but there is an undocumented DOS command that will fix the problem.
User: I knew it!
Tech : Just add the line LOAD NOSMOKE.COM < http://nosmoke.com/>  at the end of the CONFIG.SYS. Let me know how it goes.
10 minutes later.
User : It didn't work. The power supply is still smoking.
Tech : Well, what version of DOS are you using?
User : MS-DOS 6.22.
Tech : That's your problem there. That version of DOS didn't come with NOSMOKE. Contact Microsoft and ask them for a patch that will give you the file. Let me know how it goes.
1 hour later.
User : I need a new power supply.p
Tech support : How did you come to that conclusion?
Tech support : (hush hush)
User : Well, I rang Microsoft and told him about what you said, and he started asking questions about the make of power supply.
Tech: Then what did he say?
User: He told me that my power supply isn't compatible with NOSMOKE.
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Hight Of all (Too Good)
15) customer care officer: I need a product identification number right now and may I help u in finding it out?
Cust: sure
CCO: could u left click on start and do u find 'My Computer'?
Cust: I did left click but how the hell do I find your computer?

This is a collection of leave letters and applications written by people in various places of India

1. Infosys, Bangalore: An employee applied for leave as follows:
Since I have to go to my village to sell my land along with my wife, please sanction me one-week leave.

2. This is from Oracle Bangalore: >From an employee who was performing the "mundan" ceremony of his 10 year old son: "as I want to shave my son's head, please leave me for two days.."

3. Another gem from CDAC. Leave-letter from an employee who was performing his daughter's wedding: "as I am marrying my daughter, please grant a week's leave.."

4. From H.A.L . Administration dept: "As my mother-in-law has expired and I am only one responsible for it, please grant me 10 days
leave."

5. Another employee applied for half day leave as follows: "Since I've to go to the cremation ground at 10 o-clock and I may not return, please grant me half day casual leave"

6. An incident of a leave letter "I am suffering from fever, please declare one day holiday."

7. A leave letter to the headmaster:
"As I am studying in this school I am suffering from headache. I request you to leave me today"

8. Another leave letter written to the headmaster:
"As my headache is paining, please grant me leave for the day."

9. Covering note: "I am enclosed herewith..."

10. Another one:
"Dear Sir: with reference to the above, please refer to my below..."

11. Actual letter written for application of leave:
"My wife is suffering from sickness and as I am her only husband at home I may be granted leave".

12. Letter writing: -
"I am in well here and hope you are also in the same well."

13. A candidate's job application:
"This has reference to your advertisement calling for a ' Typist and an Accountant - Male or Female'... As I am both(!! )for the past several years and I can handle both with good experience, I am applying for the post

couple of things

 

1. Im good at giving advise, but suck at doing shit myself (Atleast I beliebe that much)

 

2. Im a little obsessive when it comes to my friends, I somehow manage to irritate the hell out of them with this .

 

3. I havent drank properly since my graduation ( that makes it more than a month now)

 

4. If you know something is wrong, correct it .

 

5. Obviously, WE, humans do not always do the right thing , thats why we are mortals...if we did everything correct, we would be GOD

 

6. Consecience is like a wife, u hate her for nagging you all the time but then ur incomplete without it.

 

7. If ur not part of the solution, then ur part of the problem.

 

8. There are always gonna be problems, enjoy them. Life's like a wave, lots of crest's n lots of trough's....ride the wave...dont be stuck sulking about how u havent seen a crest for a long time.

 

9. We do not need a reason for existence, just the fact we were born is justification enough, proof enough that we are important.

 

10. All of us can recieve endless amounts of advice/feedback, it only US who can actually make it happen.

 

11.  I was born with short supply of patience and its been running out since September. Ive been like a bloody volcano.Unreasonable and short tempered, irritable with my friends . Im not gonna say sorry to you all. You know I love you, so deal with my moodswings.

 

you have to watch this video, its about these random american who were asked some questions...

 

A man was leaving a cafe with his morning coffee when he noticed a most unusual funeral procession A funeral coffin was followed by a second one about 50 feet behind the first. Behind the second coffin was a solitary man walking with a black dog. Behind him was a queue of 200 men walking in single line. The man couldn't stand his curiosity.

He approached the man walking with the dog, "I am so sorry for your loss,
and I know now is a bad time to disturb you, but I've never seen a funeral
like this with so many of you walking in single line. Whose funeral is
it?"

The man replied, "Well, that first coffin is for my wife."
"What happened to her?"

The man replied, "My dog attacked and killed her."

He inquired further, "Well, who is in the second coffin? "

The man answered, "My mother-in-law. She was trying to help my wife when
the dog attacked and killed her also."

A thoughtful moment of silence passes between the two men. Then the first
one asks in excitement , "Can I borrow the dog?"

The man replied, "Join the queue. "

well, the new year is here and urs truly sat n home n just chilled ....nywyas, happy new year to anyone who is vela/veli enough to read this but seriously speaking , i was thinking that wats the big deal bout the new year anyways...well, there actually isnt , its just that one year is over ...big deal ...there are many more to come and frankly speaking, each day , each moment is a reason to celebrate enough anyways ....the celebration is called LIFE....

 

i guess im just getting old......boring ....or just cynical

 

p.s. btw , new year is not earth's birthday , spartacus :P

 

 

first things first , went to the iron maiden concert on the 11th in cardiff, any words i write here will be an understateme how good they were but lemme just say this " i really really really really liked them before, now, ill worship them till the time i die"

 

first the last week in review

 

my friends were here for the graduation , came on last saturday and i ended up drinking quite a bit on sunday night,slept at 3 in the morning and then getting up at 8 to take the train at 9 to go to cardiff and then ending up at the concert, still a little hungover, and waiting for the gods to arrive , TRIVIUM opened the act and were really good and joy n me analysing their music( i might admit ive never done it before but they sounded a lot like metallica and scorpions leading us to call them a cocktail but a gentle reminder cocktail has the original spirits but has its own flavour, n dats exactly what they were) anywas, maiden arrived and wat an arrival...wooooooooooooooooooow.. they played their album which is not released as yet but still rocked , they went off in 90 minutes (in the meantime, EDDIE arrived at the stage in tank and later walked as well...those of you who do not know him, he's the mascot of the band , if i may say so...see the pic, the guy on the tank ,thats eddie)...nyways, they returned and played 4 or 5 classics and dats it , the day was made ...we returned and left next morning for bath, since my graduation was on tuesday

 

therefore, again sleep deprived, managed to reach for the graduation and had a ball of a time (ill put up the snaps a little while later)...only because all my friends were there , doing stupid stuff, like the usual suspects line up, throwing our graduation hats in the air , reservoir dogs stuff n so on so forth , this also made me realise how big movie buffs we are ...after the ceremony, ate like a pig and then later some pool in a pub and a club ended the night ..spartacus was the star of the show by directing the chancellor of the university to pose for a snap (i think the vice chancellor did call him "cheeky")

 

nyways, apart from all the highs , there were lows , actually only one , didnt ge tto spend much time with a friend who was too busy and secondly, when all of them left :( and again, it was the feeling of being stranded alone in this place , the feeling sucks n i just miss them , as simple as that

 

new entry

A question has been bothering me of late

 

when do children become adults ?? or in other words, when do girls become women and boys become men ???  A very beautiful answer to this question is heard quite often and states " we become adults when we start behaving responsibly , when we become mature ."

 

Really ????? i find that very hard to believe , (call me narrow minded ) A child becomes an adult when he/she loses their innocence. As a result, they start seeing beyond the ideal world which was once their world, and start seeing the brutal facts which have become an integral part of our life , deaths , murders, lies , betrayals, rape , perversion and the countless other vices. However, I do not say for an instance that there are no positives in our human life. These still outnumber the negatives and is the only reason why we still sustain.

 

Anyways, the reason for this outburst is coz ive lost my innocence long time back and even though i reek of childish behaviour , i will never ever be a child again. I will never look at the world and see it as perfect as I saw it some years back. In comparison, this world is black , doesnt have much colours and there are usually shades of grey with some bright spots .

 

So the following question, why are we in a hurry to make these kids adults, why do we want them to lose their innocence when they can never get it back?? I know the counterarguement to this maybe saying that in order to survive , they have to see the realities and blah blah ...I miss my innocence, I want to be innocent but can never be   

last week i was on my way to my friends place at about 11 30 - 12 to watch the champions trophy final, whilst waiting for the bus , i saw a cop car drive down the road, he drives by, nuthing happens, then a minute later, i see a speeding car in the opposite direction, predictaby enough i saw the cop car returning in the same direction. However, this is where this observation ends.

 

Two minutes later, the same cop appears in the corner, ableit on foot this time and we made eye contact,he the comes to me and rattles a few lines about the procedure, i was bloody shocked , it took a minute or two for me to calm down coz i was soooooooo angry, the cop was saying that i matched the description of a malaysian burglar with a brown jacket, anyways my bus came and i co-operated with whatever he asked and i was on the bus but there were a few things i really wanted to ask that cop.

 

a. do look like a friggin malaysian??

b. i was wearing a tweed jacket, if i was wearing my black jacket, would he have stopped and questioned me ?

c. is it because i hadnt shaved in a couple of days?

d. do i look like a fuckin burglar?

 

or did he harassed me coz when we made eye contact, i looked at him sternly???

 

il never know but ive had a good laugh on this one now with my friends

A friend sent this to me and was one of the first things i read....i just love this one ....eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehawwwwwwwwwwwww

 

 

the keeda is gone , i dunno but i get the urge to write sometimes the same way i have to eat DONUTS sometimes ....and i know those are pretty crappy ones so dont tell me they are good

           LET ME BE .......